We are already in July, the second half of the year has started and soon it will be Christmas. Wow its been a year already since Tammy and her dance team came to Trinidad. I miss them although it was really just a few months ago I was eating their very amercian food with a mission to get me fat. Next time I think i need to go for a lot longer :)

I am starting TTHTI in September, back in the life a student. I am really looking forward to it, right now I'm just organizing all my payments and dreading a doctor's visit. That is going to be quite an adjustment, from a working girl with her own salary to a full time student with an allowance. God is still Jehovah Jireh. Sadly there will be no vacation for me this year but I am going to take a week off from work to go Toco with the youths in august, that will have to be my "vacation" this year. Last year was quite an experience, the way God moved, the food, the fellowship, the alone time with my bible and books, the beach (even thought it poured two out of the three days we were there)and the lack of sleep.

I have learnt that in the darkest hours and the most trying times we still have a song to sing and we should be singing it. That reminds us of our joy (which is internal and can only be given by God) which is our strength. We have to press on and go through the fire in order to come out on the other side. God compares us to silver being refined. The blacksmith has to watch over the precious metal, if it is taken out too soon, it will not be ready and will easily fall apart. If it is left too long it will be destroyed so he takes it out just at the right time. So it is with us, He watches over us always.

I have a cross that I bear daily and really Jesus causes a lot of things to happen. Seriously no one can tell me that Jesus isn't real. The bible says that parents will be against children and sisters against sisters... I live that every single day. But I'm doing ok I guess because Jesus is carrying my cross with me :) sure I feel to cry my eyes out at times and scream in pillows but God is seeing me through.

I wished my friends lived closer to me.