Jesus My heart really is yours

Last semester I didn't do a good job finding that balance with my spiritual life and my school life. Sad to say, the bible reading and prayer life dimmed causing me to dip spiritually. While I had great success in school and a great deliverance for my finals, knowing that God was right there with me all the way, I moved away from Him. I was not living in sin, its just my focused changed and my spirit suffered greatly. I was not where I was supposed to be. Thank the Lord He never left me one moment and was always calling me back to Himself. I cannot be shared, after all He is a jealous God who deserves nothing less than all of me.

God started a revival in the church, didn't even wait for a new year to start. Boxing day in church the word of God wasn't even preached but I ended crying my eyes out and going in that prayer line. I started praying for personal revival and Indeed I am getting it. Uncle Ash told me he was praying that I would get that wake up call I finally told him about... I needed to get back to where I am supposed to be.

The new year came and there was a lot of fleshly responses. It was a conversation that started the week before prayer and fast started that I realised how much I had changed. I became uncompassionate and uncaring and so angry and I didn't seem to care. That's not like me. I took the time to pray and fast with the church and I am feeling so different. But revival does not come without a cost.

My scripture for this year is James 4:8 Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. So I am drawing close to Him. I purpose in my heart to keep Him my focus.

I also decided to commit myself to youth meetings. 2 hours on a Saturday isn't going to kill me. Shamela is the youth leader and I believe that God is going to do a mighty work in the youths this year. Kieron, Akel and Mark came to visit and I believe that we are going to join our church youth group sometimes.

In order for me to get what I need to receive I need to be where God wants me to be. So I am getting back. Mending relationships, and asking God to give me His heart...