Youth for Christ asked me to be a writer for their newsletter and I just said yes... and I feel this is what God wants me to do, now I guess all the meetings begin and we plan and whatever else but I'm really excited about it. It's definitely a new venture for me but I can't wait. Even when school starts back it will be something that I can still do. Plus it will help me to stay in the word a lot more.
Yet in the midst of that I feel totally lost.
We are all created with a purpose but these days I am wondering what is mine. I know my talents and gifts (at least what it is now) but I don't know how to use them or where I can use them so at times I feel completely useless at times. God is so silent and I just am seeking Him knowing that I will find Him but not knowing what I will find. The amazing thing is I know I am in His hand and no one can pluck me out and He is still in control. It is in waiting God prepares us for what is to come... prepare us to receive what is for us. But it does not make things any easier.
It took me a long time to learn that He can take everything I throw at Him and then some... what an awesome friend/father/lover I have in Jesus... now He is reminding me that He can take all my complaints too. All my Whys and When and How questions that I have in my heart. So once I'm complaining to Him more than I am to others, I guess that can work. I am trusting Him and holding on to what I know.
In my life I have realised that everyone gets "busy" at the same time. Everyone just pulls away from me... there is no mentors, no close friends around... I know it happens ever so often but it never is easier whenever it happens. I guess God wants me all to Himself.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Camp 2010 - Restored by Grace
I decided since I like the camp thing I would make it a thing to do every carnival weekend. This year i camped with Scaborough New testament Church of God, our sister church in Tobago. I went a day early and got to go beach. How can I go Tobago and not go beach? Rachael and Camille went up for camp do we met up in town then headed to the beach. I swear Tobago sun is wayyy hotter than Trinidad's sun. We spent practically all day in the beach and was nursing for some wonderful sunburn.
Camp officially started Friday night. Pur theme for camp was "restored by grace" and the them scripture was psalm 51...when David sinned with Bathsheba. David is still my favourite bible character of all time so I was thrilled that we were doing this. Every morning they woke us up at 6 for PE then then put us into teams: Benjamin, Levi, Reuben, and Judah. This year there was a lot of little kids, while every team had 5 kids, I swear we had the most unresponsive, shortest attention span kids ever.They had to transfer two of the bigger boys to my team. Overall we placed 3rd but for me it wasn't about winning or loosing. I was placed as a team leader along with Darrel.
Saturday was a hike...then followed by part one of sports. I actually played basketball and football. Sun was a scorcher and I got sooo tanned, its not funny. Benjamin didnt exactly win any sports but we did soo awesome in quiz though. Bible stuff is my strong point but I'm not the one who answered most of the question. Shion who is 8 years was on fire!!!! she got some of the more difficult questions correct and everyone was simply amazed at this little girl.
Talent audition was good, there were 4 categories : dance, individual, test piece based on psalm 51, and drama/dialogue. I wanted my team to enter all and it was a bit of coaxing but it was done. I must admit I am soooo proud of the boys in the team. Jakim, Devon, Rensin aka Twin. Those boys pulled me out so many times. They did the drama and the song and the song went through and the dance that i put together in 30 minutes. During part 2 of sports they just did what they had to do. i didnt even have to ask them to participate even though they knew we were loosing badly.
After that i really didn't mind if we did place 4th overall. It may have taken some persuading but they really came through.
When I saw that my dance went through and was chosen as a team leader i Just laughed. Sometimes I just know that God is preparing me for things ahead. Camp wasn't without it's challenges but it was a wonderful experience. Would I go back again? yes I would and without hesitation. Tobago is absolutely wonderful!!! and I Love SNTCOG and the people there. I want to go Tobago more often and I plan on going at least once a year. I have a paradise island next to me.
Camp officially started Friday night. Pur theme for camp was "restored by grace" and the them scripture was psalm 51...when David sinned with Bathsheba. David is still my favourite bible character of all time so I was thrilled that we were doing this. Every morning they woke us up at 6 for PE then then put us into teams: Benjamin, Levi, Reuben, and Judah. This year there was a lot of little kids, while every team had 5 kids, I swear we had the most unresponsive, shortest attention span kids ever.They had to transfer two of the bigger boys to my team. Overall we placed 3rd but for me it wasn't about winning or loosing. I was placed as a team leader along with Darrel.
Saturday was a hike...then followed by part one of sports. I actually played basketball and football. Sun was a scorcher and I got sooo tanned, its not funny. Benjamin didnt exactly win any sports but we did soo awesome in quiz though. Bible stuff is my strong point but I'm not the one who answered most of the question. Shion who is 8 years was on fire!!!! she got some of the more difficult questions correct and everyone was simply amazed at this little girl.
Talent audition was good, there were 4 categories : dance, individual, test piece based on psalm 51, and drama/dialogue. I wanted my team to enter all and it was a bit of coaxing but it was done. I must admit I am soooo proud of the boys in the team. Jakim, Devon, Rensin aka Twin. Those boys pulled me out so many times. They did the drama and the song and the song went through and the dance that i put together in 30 minutes. During part 2 of sports they just did what they had to do. i didnt even have to ask them to participate even though they knew we were loosing badly.
After that i really didn't mind if we did place 4th overall. It may have taken some persuading but they really came through.
When I saw that my dance went through and was chosen as a team leader i Just laughed. Sometimes I just know that God is preparing me for things ahead. Camp wasn't without it's challenges but it was a wonderful experience. Would I go back again? yes I would and without hesitation. Tobago is absolutely wonderful!!! and I Love SNTCOG and the people there. I want to go Tobago more often and I plan on going at least once a year. I have a paradise island next to me.
Monday, February 8, 2010
After vacation always comes the routine. I miss California a lot and the friends that reside there. I'm glad that I am back in church and now all ministries are up and running. I also admit that I have come home feeling refreshed, I deal with customers at work a lot better, I'm more pleasant to my family and I don't think that work in a total bore...well at least not yet.
I'm surprised at how my family and I have been getting along since I came back. I've been back three weeks now and my sister and I have not had one argument.
The week before I left for California, we had these huge fights, she said more things to me than I said to her but a lot of the things she said didn't really bother me. I just accepted it as the way she saw me and I can't change her mind about it. When I came back she was actually being nice to me and I was just waiting on the next word she had to say but so far so good. I'm praying it stays this way for a long time.
Carnival weekend is almost here...for most people it's just revelry and feting...for me I'm getting a get away in Tobago. I'm camping with the Scarborough Church of God and I am super excited... camp, Tobago, seriously what more can I possible want?
And I'm getting an extra day In Tobago. I did get warned from everyone... apparently they paste and mush and initiate new comers, which would be me this year. And yes I am carrying my camera.
I'm waiting to register for school... this waiting period is kinda killing me... I'm like yes this is definitely what I want to do... everything will fall into place. I'm not really looking forward to commuting close to 2 hrs on a daily basis. Besides that I'm going to be a full time student... I don't like that a lot...yes I get to finish faster but...
My heart is really heavy... Oh Lord, be my strength and my shield, my fortress.
I'm surprised at how my family and I have been getting along since I came back. I've been back three weeks now and my sister and I have not had one argument.
The week before I left for California, we had these huge fights, she said more things to me than I said to her but a lot of the things she said didn't really bother me. I just accepted it as the way she saw me and I can't change her mind about it. When I came back she was actually being nice to me and I was just waiting on the next word she had to say but so far so good. I'm praying it stays this way for a long time.
Carnival weekend is almost here...for most people it's just revelry and feting...for me I'm getting a get away in Tobago. I'm camping with the Scarborough Church of God and I am super excited... camp, Tobago, seriously what more can I possible want?
And I'm getting an extra day In Tobago. I did get warned from everyone... apparently they paste and mush and initiate new comers, which would be me this year. And yes I am carrying my camera.
I'm waiting to register for school... this waiting period is kinda killing me... I'm like yes this is definitely what I want to do... everything will fall into place. I'm not really looking forward to commuting close to 2 hrs on a daily basis. Besides that I'm going to be a full time student... I don't like that a lot...yes I get to finish faster but...
My heart is really heavy... Oh Lord, be my strength and my shield, my fortress.
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